post-it note or purple, whichever it may be, please god.....

~Don't be pushed by your problems, be led by your dreams......
~We make our future by the best use of the present.....
~Some pursue hapiness, while others create it....
~The trouble with giving advice is that people want to repay you.....(advice is free, from me at least)
~You use 14 muscles to smile and 43 to frown.......so smile!
~Courage is the power to let go of the familiar.......i need more courage God.
~Don't be afraid to go out on the limb, thats where the fruit is :)
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so last week at soccer practice we scrimaged the 15's. hmm you'd think we would be able to think in our heads- "we've got this, we're nearly 4 years older than them, we're bigger and stronger, and above all we're better." well, we found out that we are definatley NOT better, and you sure as hell wouldnt be able to tell that we're 4 years older by the way we play. so bergie was a lil ticked when we were down 0-1. not just a little, alot. she started bitching. girls are touchy, so alot of them took things personal and got pissy. i hate how girls are like that. i just ignored it, but totally agreed with everything she was telling people. so the next day, berg's all pissed off, and like everyone else is pissed at her. i hate that........sorry. that was a stupid story.

right now i wish i was in never-never land. i wish God could just give me a ticket and say- "here ya go Emily, never grow up." i wanna be a kid forever. I dont wanna worry about homework and papers, drama with friends and guys. i dont even wanna think about responsibility in college and the toughness of medical schoool, and i dont wanna pay bills, and worry about who i'm going to marry, and having and taking care of kids, and all that un-pleasant thoughts in life. God help...

latin is so fun. me and megan are rebels. we slept all class.........test-head down-5min later-megan coughs-10 seconds later-we both look up-look at pastor-look at each other-nod-heads back down-five minutes pass---etc etc the cycle keeps going. LOL. ahhh

so this weekend was pretty tight. friday night steph came over and we chatted it up. then we brought out the video camera. the funny thing is that my house is always the place that we tape stuff. and its always stupid stuff. we never video tape anything at anyone else's house, but mine. lol but its funny. i'm going to put everything together from frosh year and put it on a video so we can watch it whenever. that will be fun :) no one can see it though. only us girls LOL.

saturday the guys lost. thats sad. then justin's. 4-wheeling. way fun!!! i am way more dominant at football then justin. i killed him! :) lol. then student council. homecoming is going to suck. rachel, we have to go dress shopping- NEXT WEEKEND!!! then bubby's house.
i dont even care anymore. i truly dont. i'm going to forget about everything and start over.

November 5 - 7
Fall Teen Retreat
grades: 9 - 12
i am so excited. i hope all my fellow junior staffers will be there. yay.
relaxation in creation, renewal in christ.

so i'm totally excited to go to purdue, and for homecoming, and teh teen retreat, and idk what else.

so anywho.......i had a nice conversation with jared today. :) the packers suck. they lost. i'm pissed. GRRR........i cannot believe tomorrow is monday already.
sometimes, i just wanna change things in my life. i wish i had a remote to rewind and fast forward and re-play and everything. right now is one of those times i wish i had a remote. to rewind to things i've done that i want to do over, and to fast forward to see what my future will be like........

*I can do ALL things through him who gives me strength*
Phil 4:13

peace OUT.