Thanks for everything God!!!

Thanks for my campers, who made me realize the true blessings and joys in life. such as patience. and kindness. and prayers. they truly changed me. (below)

I thank God for:
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justin. thanks for everything bud. i'm always here for ya. love ya millions! :)
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yay for being silly :) :) :) lol
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step, i wuv you. friends forever. and when we become doctors together, we'll drive into our clinic in our benzes and lexuses and escaldes, with our firemen or doctor husbands, with our white lab coats that say- Emily _______, Ph.D. or; Doctor Stephanie _________ , can't wait! and i cant wait for the next memory we'll make. the next time we'll laugh together at the stupidest things. i love it.
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nhs induction- way fun. not really. Thank God no one got lit on fire----he he he
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i was on tv- just like this. but no one saw me :(
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yay for floating on thin air!!! :) and crazy fun games like this
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i love my parents.
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life long friendships- i've known these two since i was 6!!! :)
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tailgating :)
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yay for winning championships!!! :)
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i'm going to thoroughly miss some of these girls. I thank God for all the good times. lol. ha ha ha......... :)
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Give thanks with a grateful heart, Give thanks to the Holy One; Give thanks because He's given Jesus Christ, His Son. And now let the weak say, "I am strong," let the poor say, "I am rich" because of what the Lord has done for us. GIVE THANKS.

"O give thanks unto the Lord, for he is good." Psalm 107:1

"It is a good thing to give thanks unto the Lord, and to sing praises unto your name, O most High!" Psalm 92:1

I am truly thankful for:

(everything in the pics below are some of the many things i'm thankful for)

friends, soccer banquets, food, pools, ditto swimming lol, soccer, mr. moeller, voices being able to squeak, cones, bonding, high fives, header goals, encouragers and motivators, laughter, running, cleats, goals, voices to scream "team" or "slinger" or in some cases even "MR. MOELLER"
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my adorable brother and dog.
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wakeboarding.......
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double skiing/ double slaloming!!!! :) (me and brookley, my lil sis)
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triple skiing!!!! :) (me, derek, brooke)
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being able to arrange 4 ski ropes, 8 skis, and horse power.....
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quadruple skiing!! (me, dad, dave, brooke) :) :) :)
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my sisters; danielle, me, and brookley
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beautiful lakes, double skiing with brookley....brookley, nautiques.... skis... :-D
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tubing and boats
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knowing God has given me THIS family for a reason....... :)
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family and snowball fights.........
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the state fair and creme puffs......
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getting your hair and make-up done, flowers, high heels, friends, and fun times
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laser tag
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tye-dying :):):)
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my crazy little brother and his nice dread-locks.....and singing karaoke
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Megan...and her humor...and for all the good times she provides :)......and of course for state basketball tournaments :)
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rachel rebecca.....i absolutely LOVE you. thank you for everything.
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a second yay for being losers again.....lol this was one crazy night..... LOL. (steph, jenny, me)
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yay for being losers.... :)
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LOL LOL LOL
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more fun with soccer girls.....goose.....*honk* lol cant wait- exactly 110 days ladies ;)
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this is my dog rustie. i love her. :'(
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MR. MOELLER!!!!!!!!!! lol
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another slight glimpse of heaven on earth. :( i miss it SO much. (who wants to come snowmobiling this winter wit me?!?!)
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up north......aka heaven.
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I miss you sarah jones. :'(
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I love my brothers. and i miss my long hair.....
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Remember this Ray?!??! only THE best day ever :)
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Anne, Steph, and Beth- I miss this :(
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This is the story of a girl, who cried a river and drowned the whole world.....

friendship......how do u describe or define that word?
i guess i've learned that friends aren't always there when you WANT them to be, but they should be there when you NEED them to be.
heres an interesting poem i found:
Sometimes it seems that best friends arent best friends anymore
or that we dont have what we had before
it makes me confused it even makes me sad
But im thankful for the great times that we had
and if you dont remember me, or im just from the past
Good memmorys will stay w/ me they will always last
so if things are over i guess its ok with me
its a terrable loss, but i guess it must be
but if yall still love me or u need me relli bad
ill gladly be there. right ther 2 hold ur hand
cuz i love you guys dearly and i dont want you to go
but times change, friends drift, i guess it must be so

starting over is the only thing i want for christmas........

i miss kaleena. chrissy i hope you get better.
JR. STAFF XMAS PARTY IN:
17 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!
(i'm hopefully gunna have peeps over prolly before the party so call me or email me if you need details..)

Happy Thanksgiving yall.
i heart you.
*waldorf*

*****PRAY FOR SNOW*****

random blog, my thoughts and feelings, and excerpts and memories.....

You have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you got, remember what you had, always forgive, but never forget, learn from your mistakes, but never regret, people change, things go wrong, just remember life goes on...

I...

1 MINUTE AGO: I was talking to berg...
1 HOUR AGO: I was watching "Date My Mom"
1 DAY AGO: I was fighting with my little brother
1 WEEK AGO: I was chillin at home...?
1 YEAR AGO: either soccer practice, maybe talkin online....
I HURT: when i feel people dont care about me, or talk about me behind my back, or i dont feel loved, or when I think about all the camp people i miss.....
I LOVE: soccer, usually, my family, friends, my dog, CAMP
I HATE: liars, pastor moldenhauer, mr. kuehl, fighting........
I FEAR: death by attack of birds.......
I HOPE: we go undefeated in indoor, that this year gets better
I FEEL: worried and confused about the future- soccer, college, school, friends
I LISTEN: to Believe, by Yellowcard
I HIDE: my frustration and feelings
I DRIVE: a minivan. yay for chrissy and girls that drive minivans club
I PLAY: the piano, use to play the flute, hope to soon play guitar
I MISS: how things were last year, camp, everyone from camp, peeps from erin
I LEARNED: "don't cry because its over, smile because it happened", "the only thing that counts is faith," people change, not everything goes the way you want it to, work with what you've got, smile
I WAIT: to go to camp again, to know what God has planned for my future.....
I KNOW: that Jesus loves me.
I NEED: confidence, strength- all kinds, mostly physical, optimism.....
I THINK: i should go do my homework.......blah

interesting......

if you were a rapper, what would you call yourself??
rachel, remember the alien thing from toy story, when they move their lips- "OOOOOOOHHH"?!

MEMORIES:
"marcus came over, i showered....WHILE HE WATCHED TV, just to clear that up. then we went to my old school, said hi to the fam, came home, then left. we went to his house and watched movies. i slept over there. church, then some more movies, then the passion, then a fun long ride home. " --->this is weird to me. (march 08, 2004)

"lol rachel came over yesterday after we lifted and ran, and we had a very fun talk in my bed...."so, ya wanna try it?" LOL!!!! long story...dont ask. " (March 03, 2004)
"friday was one of the funniest nights in a long time. rachel and i had a hilarious time at marcus's game, wandering the halls, almost falling down the bleachers, sand-trap!, BOB, the little kid that sat behind us........." (March 01, 2004)

"friday was a breathtaking, electrifying, exhilarating, intoxicating, thrilling, titillating, spastic day..........i went over to rachels, we looked at the scrap book and reminisced......then we made these awesome shakes with oreos, ice cream, and milk....they were amazing!! we waited for steph, talked about some provocative things, then ate our pizza. stephanie came over and we had an amazing time. read steph's blog and it will explain the super-de-duper hyjacking the bus plan we had. we then planned to steal a cart with my jeep. we will put hosiery over our heads, and play the mission impossible theme song blasting out of my car as the car bounces around. the whole parking lot will be looking at us as we steal the cart.....the cops will arrest us and my dad will laugh at us when we are in jail......and rachel will say "bum-mer" lol just wait for the mug-shots! WE ARE GOING TO STEAL A CART!!!" (April 28, 2004)

"wow, although tonight sucked......i still had fun. this long long paragraph is dedicated to my soccer girls :)memories that i will laugh about for LONG time! lol:Teresa's yellow umbrella, her umbrella dance, "happy birthday teresa......Teresa hansen 'OH OH THATS ME' happy birthday" LOL......megan stole a cup...jamie stole silverware.....what a lutheran school we are! lol..spiked noodles....goose...HONK! lol, megan out the window.."IS THERE A SUBWAY?.....QUIZZNOS??" LMAO!. rachel....lets go look at the car seat....what car seat?-"THE SEAT FROM A CAR?!?!" lol......the pewaukee track team running through the trees...kinda weird, lol, "i'm psycho"......stealing mints.....megan had to pee at least 5 times....crapping in public toilets=yeah not cool....."FREE PROGRAMS!!!" lol...wow they're free! "THIS IS GOD....." George Clooney! lolmegan...can i play in the sand with you? HA....lauren pissing! OMG FUNNIEST THING EVER! ALMOST PISSED MY PANTS!. water bottle pom-poms..yeah i was on some sugar high.......amanda: green, rachel: GREEN! lmao!; randy and richard! ha ha........lol scaring pastor: "What's goin on under the bus?!" HA HA HA HA HA.....starbucks...oh so good. mr. washburn falling down was priceless! yet again, teresa's umbrella! team mascot....big yellow umbrella! ha ha ha " <---- just for kixx! (April 21, 2004)

~If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, you know it was meant to be.
~Love can sometimes be magic, but magic can sometimes just be an illusion.

"so every day, rachel and i do something to matt, lol make fun of him, put midol in his milk and sauce, use EX-LAX on him (that totally flopped but it was still hilarious!), throw his book under the table, eat his pizza crust, eat his cookies, tell him landon takes his stuff..not really, lol. MATT, you are our only entertainment and you keep us laughing. thanks for all the good times..." (April 9, 2004)

"girls night was way fun. i was on my death bed in the parking lot of target...." (April 6, 2004)

LOL remember in phy ed, when steph full out spit on jenny!!! LOL

For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. Matt. 6:14-15

emmers.....

these are the days we're given.....

these are the years worth livin
these are the moments, these are the times,
lets make the best out of our lives.

last year, every day was an opportunity to make new memories. this year is mostly all reminiscing, maybe a memory here, or a memory there. i hate that. what do i have to rememer from junior year so far- not much besides.....homecoming, friday night, matt's teeth, and crazy justin.....
that disappoints me. :( LETS MAKE NEW MEMORIES PEOPLE.

so my parents got bobby a real snare drum for his birthday. oh my god. someone shoot me.

and brett is the biggest brat. EVER. i could kill him.

enough of brothers. they suck. moving on.....
justin. you are hilarious. i love you......

lol amber is a republican. i think george bush is hot. lol.
steph, when is our next trouble makin day?!?!?!

i miss phy ed :(
and i TOTALLY can't wait for ali. she sent us the sweetest card and pics today at school. MAIL- AT SCHOOL!! HOW TOTALLY RAD IS THAT! lol. i love you so much ali.

my stupid ear. and stupid whomp.
goodnight all.

bored

bold what you've done:
Bought everyone in the pub a drink.
Swam with wild dolphins.
Climbed a mountain.
Taken a Ferrari for a test drive.
Been inside the Great Pyramid.
Held a tarantula.
Taken a candlelit bath with someone.
Said 'I love you' and meant it.
Hugged a tree.
Done a striptease.
Bungee jumped.
Visited Paris.
Watched a lightning storm at sea.
Stayed up all night long and watch the sunrise.
Seen the Northern Lights
Gone to a huge sports game. (pudue v. wisconsin!!)
Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
Grown and eaten your own vegetables
Touched an iceberg.
Slept under the stars
Changed a baby's diaper
Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
Watched a meteor shower.
Gotten drunk on champagne
Given more than you can afford to charity.
Looked up at the night sky through a telescope.
Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
Had a food fight. (camp!!! WAY FUN!!!!)
Bet on a winning horse.
Taken a sick day when you're not ill.
Asked out a stranger.
Had a snowball fight.
Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier.
Screamed as loudly as you possibly can.
Held a lamb.
Organized and planned a surprise party for a loved one.
Taken a midnight skinny dip
Taken an ice cold shower
Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar.
Seen a total eclipse.
Ridden a roller coaster.
Hit a home run.
Fit three weeks miraculously into three days.
Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking.
Adopted an accent for an entire day.
Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment.
Had two hard drives for your computer
Visited all 50 states
Loved your job for all accounts.
Taken care of someone who was really sick
Had enough money to be truly satisfied.
Had amazing friends
Danced with a stranger in a foreign country.
Watched wild whales.
Stolen a sign.
Backpacked in Europe
Taken a road-trip.
Rock climbing
Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice.
Midnight walk on the beach.
Sky diving
Visited Ireland.
Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love.
In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them.
Visited Japan.
Bench pressed your own weight.
Milked a cow.
Alphabetized your cds
Pretended to be a superhero.
Sung karaoke.
Lounged around in bed all day.
Protested something you feel strongly against.
Scuba diving.
Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye.
Played in the rain. (lol steph)
Gone to a drive-in theater.
Done something you should regret, but don't regret it.
Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog.
Dropped Windows in favor of something better.
Started a business.
Fallen in love and not had your heart broken.
Toured ancient sites.
Taken a martial arts class
Swordfought for the honor of a woman.
Played a DVD for more than 6 hours straight.
Been in a movie. (plenty of home-videos LOL)
Crashed a party.
Loved someone you shouldn't have.
Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
Gotten divorced.
Started an office war.
Gone without food for 5 days.
Made cookies from scratch.
Won first prize in a costume contest.
Ridden a gondola in Venice.
Gotten a tattoo.
Rafted the Snake River.
Been on television news programs as an "expert." ( i was on espn live, BUT NO ONE SAW ME )
Got flowers for no reason.
Made out in a public place (if a park or parking lot counts)
Got so drunk you don't remember anything. (lol the shark?!?!)
Been addicted to some form of illegal drug. (love)
Performed on stage.
Recorded music.
Eaten shark.
Drank an entire 6 pack by yourself.
Gone to Thailand.
Seen Siouxsie live.
Bought a house.
Been in a combat zone.
Buried one/both of your parents.
Shaved all of your hair off.
Been on a cruise ship.
Spoken more than one language fluently
Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone.
Bounced a check.
Performed in theatre.
Read - and understood - your credit report.
Raised children.
Taken a bicycle tour in a foreign country
Found out something significant that your ancestors did.
Called or written your Congress person
Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
Walked the Golden Gate Bridge.
Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking.
Had an abortion.
Had plastic surgery.
Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived.
Wrote articles for a large publication.
Lost over 100 pounds.
Piloted an airplane.
Pet a stingray.
Helped an animal give birth.
Been fired or laid off from a job.
Won money on a T.V. game show.
Broken a bone.
Killed a human being. .
Gone on an African photo safari.
Ridden a motorcycle.
Been in any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100 mph.
Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced.
Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol. (bb gun?!?)
Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild.
Ridden a horse.
Had major surgery. (i got my wisdom teeth pulled)
Ridden on a passenger train.
Had a snake as a pet.
Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon.
Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing.
Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours.
Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states.
Visited all 7 continents.
Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days.
Eaten kangaroo meat.
Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground.
Been a sperm or egg donor.
Eaten sushi.
Had your picture in the newspaper. (OMG THEY'RE EVERYWHERE!! AHH)
Had 2 healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime. (only one)
Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about. ( I HOPE SO)
Gotten someone fired for their actions.
Gone back to school.
Parasailed. (THE MOST AMAZING THING I HAVE EVER DONE)
Changed your name.
Petted a cockroach.
Eaten fried green tomatoes.
Read The Iliad Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read a book by them.
Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, or cups because your apartment needed them
Taught yourself an art from scratch.
Killed and prepared an animal for eating.
Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt.
Skipped all your school reunions.
Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language.
Been elected to public office.
Written your own computer language.
Thought to yourself that you're living your dream.
Had to put someone you love into hospice care.
Built your own PC from parts.
Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you.
Had a booth at a street fair.
Dyed your hair.
Been a DJ. Been arrested.
Hated someone
Shaved hair from places you had no purpose shaving. (lol in 4th grade i shaved my arms?!?!)

this was fun.

the lord works in mysterious ways.....

6 a.m.
The clock is ringing
I need to spend an hour snoozing
'Cuz I don't think I'm gonna make it
I punch in
I'm still sleeping
Watch the clock,
But it's not moving
'Cuz every day is never ending
I need to work I'm always spending

And I feel likeI'm living the worst day
Over and over again
And I feel like the summer is leaving again
I feel like I'm living the worst day
I feel like you're gone
And every day is the worst day ever

Yesterday was the worst day ever
And tomorrow won't be betterI
t's history repeating
Summer plans are gone forever
I traded them in for dishpan water
And every day is never ending
I need to work I'm always spending

And I feel likeI'm living the worst day
Over and over again
And I feel like the summer is leaving again
I feel like I'm living the worst day
I feel like you're gone
And every day is the worst day ever
Whoa - oh
Every day is the worst day ever

It's so long
I can't go on
It's so long
I can't go on
And I feel likeI'm living the worst day
Over and over again
I feel like the summer is leaving again
I feel like I'm living the worst day
I feel like you're gone

And every day is the worst day ever
Whoa - oh
Every day is the worst day ever
Whoa wo-oh
whoa wo-oh
whoa Wo-oh
whoa wo-oh
whoa whoa wo-oh
The worst day ever
Whoa wo-oh

i look at you as you lay there on your back with your 60 pound, cancer filled, slowly dying body. you just look so helpless, uncomftorble, sickly. like you're just going to die right then and there. and then i cry. and cry and cry and cry. and lie next to you. like i'm never going to let you go, which i wont. cuz you are mine. you've been mine since i was 6. since the moment you were ours, you were my little puppy girl.
there are points in life when you feel you have no more tears to cry. you dont have any energy left to cry. but then, i look at you, and i cry again. today, i've probably cried for a good, ah, 3.5-4 hours.
lets hope tomorrow is a better day. please no one ask me any questions like, whats wrong, hows rustie, anything like that. please please please.

theres nothin better baby, do you like my sweater?.......

it all started with the drop of water chrissy "spilled" lol. which left morehouse coaxing jones to splash her whole cup of water on me. which, i returned the favor to her. lol. and innocent bystanders such as CHRISSY, lol got a LITTLE wet too. ha ha great times.
camp was fun.
i will never forget the food fight.....which i still have to wash my clothes.
matthew attempting to tackle me.
the taffy game
alaskan kickball- CHRISSY, THAT WAS RIGHT TO YOU! lol uh oh, CHRISSY!! ha ha
british bulldog, LOL and seeing LAMB pick up chrissy. lmao. hilarious.
playing skip-bo
singing angels with junior staff
happy birthday chrissy
chrissy- thats wickie!!!

eat right- grow strong
face to the son got my feet on the rock
gotta clean heart- pure mind
standin on the promises.......

congrats to the volleyball team. wish i coulda been there :(

so i ruptured my ear drum, meaning ihave a hole in it. which also means i cant hear very well out of it. and it hurts. and i ahve to take these ear drops that are SO painful. i almost cry every time.
and i'm gettin sick.
and my dog is dying. she has lumps, and isnt walking very good. :'(
its just not my week.

BUT, my parents are gone all weekend which is a good thing.
ali's play friday night
dinner with justin saturday
church and youth group and soccer game

if anyone wants to come to any of my indoor games- lemme know. it is heated, and its a nice place. our keeper is amazing, you could just watch her and be amazed. we won last weekend 8-2, so we arent bad lol. and everything is fast paced, usually weekend mornings or evenings. :) i would much enjoy it.

love forever.
tootles.

reminiscing

so i am in adv bio right now. i was reading all of steph's old posts. this one really really made me laugh. lol. remember steph??? ha ha ha


Monday, May 03, 2004

Direct quote from Matt Smith's Blog: "would any girl want to be a guy just so theyd be able to pee on someone".Me.Once I complained to Matthew (as in Bown) about a person. His great words of advice "Piss on him". Yes, very good advice, I do realize, but I responded with this."I cannot aim!"And there is truth to that. I could not piss on someone because I could not aim well enough.Therefore, I would want to be a guy for a day so that I could piss on as many annoying people as I want.(Are you wondering what else Matthew suggested? Ok, I'll tell you. Pee in a jar. And throw it at them.A squirt gun, I think, would work better)

chipped teeth and falling off a chair......laughter is good

lol. the day started off with mine and steph's pre-planned idea to beat someone up. so we hid by matts locker and started "beating him up" but basically just hitting him. then like everyone standing around started beating him up- first abe, then justin, then joel. it was crazy! people were punching and smacking him for no reason. lol. so steph and i left, and i turn around as we're walking down the hallway- abe runs at matt while he's at his locker, matt flies into the locker and hits his face/teeth on the top corner of the locker. he bent over and was holding his mouth. i was dying. so later i hear that basically a huge space out of his 2 front teeth was gone LOL. and he had to go get them fixed.....($6,000)..........AHHHH. lol all from a little innocent idea of steph and i........ :) GOTTA LOVE THOSE TROUBLE MAKING DAYS RIGHT STEPANIE!

then at lunch...my dear friend justin pulled the chair out from under me. thanks buddy. oh, did i mention- justin is my new best friend. i love him so much. i dont know what i would do w/o him.

lol i love kirsten. she sent me 3 texts tonight, and we had a nice chat after school yesterday. i love underclassmen. like barisas. and mary of course. and nass.

everyone who isnt doing anything should go to state. you are stupid if you dont. how often does your school get to go to state for anything? yeah. people are stupid. who cares who else is going, you'll find someone you know. just go for crying out loud. grrr.....how would u like it if your sport actually went to state- and people didnt care to go......

did i ever mention that i hate this year? i hate it.
i cant wait for camp. i need a break from everything. i wish i was at camp for longer. not just like 2 days. :(

I thank my girlfriends, those who honor intimacy, those who hold trust, and those who hold me up when life is just too heavy! The special bond we share is unique. Thanks for the words we've shared. The prayers we've sent up. The laughs, the tears, the phone calls, the emails, the shopping, the movies, the lunches, the dinners, the talking, talking, talking, the listening, listening, listening and the helping, helping, helping.
i love you all.

to the end of the earth and back again.........

dont you just LOVE coming back to freezing cold WI after being in florida for 6 days?! yeah...i sure do....NOT. and i'm not all that glad to be home. i was excited to see like, 4 people. thats it. but in FL we did so much work....like for instance, for one day----we raked for a freaking 8.5 hours. some of you may be thinking...is that possible? you betcha. it sucked. and i vowed to myself i will never rake again. we moved some humongous trees and branches, and had 2 huge burn piles, etc....and we had to wear pants all day every day. in the insanely hot weather. that sucked. but we got to go to the beach on friday. that was tight.....
so the day time kinda sucked. i hate emily voigt, thats all i can say. but evening and night-time were the best. we tortured our nurse, sort of. lol. LOL. i laughed so hard almost every night. great times with my gurls. heres the journal we kept throughout the trip.......

~Stepanie whispering, "Enily, I'm gunna piss on you..."
~getting high on steph's peach d.o.
~crocIdile (squeak)
~I'm going to name my first child Mildred....
~I lost my gribbon....LOL
~Step "Lets by furniture..." me-"FOR WHAT?!?!" Step- "for our houses....." ?!?!?!?!??!!
~being so incredibly bored on the bus ride down, that steph and i played patty cake and other games, etc, with our feet.....lol....
~steph wrote this* (Emily writing feets....) lol ?!?!?
~"Stroke it from the roots to the ends...."
~Mel canoodling steph= steph said "I am a homophobic, and right now, mel, you are a homo!!" LOL
~which resulted in a Mel-Steph-Emily sandwhich
~Steph- "Remember that one time, at janets...." LOL
~Steph- "I really want something to suck on right now.." classic
~Steph- "MEL!! STOP JIGGLING MY KANKLES!!"
~Steph- "Even though i'm fat, my mom still loves me. i have fat in my ears so i cant hear, and i have fat in my nose, so i cant breathe..."
~"1.....baaa.......2......baaaa......3.......baaaa.......4........baaa......." LOL
~Mel's legs in the air while we were "sleeping" lol mufassa-"nice"
~Steph- "oh my gosh guys we totally forgot to do sit-ups. i feel fat. ready---GO!"
~make as much noise as possible........ha ha
~screaming- "STEPH, MEL, SHUT-UP.....SHUT-UP-SHUT-UP-SHUT-UP!"
~singing "I want to ride my bicycle", in a round, with manly voices, with our legs up in the air?!
~Steph had a lizzard up her pants, her ankle and arm got really swollen, she had a rash all over her back and chest and parts of her face, she got pooped on, and heres her response- "I'm gunna go back to kettle and everyone will be like- WHAT THE HECK?!?! AHHHHH I'm allergic to FL!"
~Mel scaring Mate.....oh man, we hated Mate. she was so annoying.
~steph and i jumping on the bed, locking mel out, singing---no more monkies jumpin on the bed...
~Steph- "Emily, we can itch each other tonight!!" LOL LOL
~ this one is great- LOL "do yeast crap?.........do they???.........DO THEY?????" LOL
~Mary- "Do you see your bread crapping?" LOL
~walkie talkie night...animal noises down the hall, banging the wall, countdowns, coughing, everyone going to the broom- at the exact same time.....
~Steph and i singing practically every camp song we can think of, while we raked...and the whole trip. quite fun.
~random burst-outs in song. fun stuff.
~stomp. and stomp encore.
~walking around in sleeping bags with steph. lol hilarious.
~"I don't know what i've been told......rakings getting really old....sound off-1-2...sound off-3-4...sound off-1-2-3-4...3-4!"
~Mary-"Have you seen, heard, or felt lindsay's vibrator?"
~Britt-"all NIGHT! all DAY!" LOL LOL LOL
~walking 10 miles to a taco bell that practically didnt exist, turning and heading BACK to McDonalds, where steph got pooped on!
~peeking out at the chaperones at the hotel lol
~"Mr. Thompson, did you enjoy sitting outside our door last night for 3 hours?!" Timmy T-"Did you enjoy watching us for 3 hours?!?!" LOL
~kirsten and i invented the 11th commandment- overly fat people should not be able to wear bikinis at the beach or ever,,,,its like a sin. lol
~Is that man or a woman.....OK definatley a man!
~screaming, practically getting attacked by seagulls at the beach with kirsten. lol
~kirsten is "THE FARTER"
~mary's "stage night" with the baumanns....who i totally hate......jello and pottery barn..lol
~ben is one of my new best friends. i love that kid....
~Steph-"its SO stinky down there" kirsten-"sticky, slimy, slutty, skanky..." lol wat the heck?
~kirsten-"I was born in the inner city of minneapolis when I was 2.......I couldnt eat until i was 3...?!?!?!"
~"I dont know but its no lie....mr. thompson made me cry....."
~"I dont know but i'm no fool.....mr thompson's really cool..."
~herding the cows is definatley fun....
~LOL making kirsten talk without using her hands......crazy funny.

for all you camp people this is just for you, so of course everyone remembers the "moo" that called everyone to the dining hall. well, we were talking about cows and camp and stuff and steph believed up until last week when i told her the truth, that that moo was from a real cow that was on camp property. LOL. isnt that so funny?!?!?! HA HA HA.......

Ben's song:
Steph is the greatest of greats
she's so much better
benjami loves her so much
more than leather
if the friendship would end
he'd fall from a shocker
wouldn't know what happened
fell right off of his rocker
because of the friendship he's so much wiser
when her fingers cross over he's the prizer
wants steph to be come the next presIdent
cuz kelly's gettin ready to graduate
*Steph is a good friend
*Steph is a great friend
*Steph is so awesome- who could be better?
Steph's a good runner
Steph is popUlar
Steph is a blondie
just like a barbie
but steph is still cool,
she will remain cool
steph is not a mule
she goes to my school
*refrain*

and mary's song, that none of us will ever forget cuz she sang it all the time:
Pastor baumann has a first name- its jon ding ding
pastor baumann has a second name its bauma-nn
i hate to see him every day and if you ask me why i'll saaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy
cuz pastor baumann has a way with w-o-r-k-i-n.....

so overall i had a great time in FL. and yes, i would do it again, minus the raking.

next item on the agenda:
CAMP TEEN RETREAT!!!!!! WOO HOO BABY!!!!!
i'm so excited. road trip with jones. major junior staff bonding reunion! werner, shinnick, borck, chrissy, jones, hopefully angie york- I LOVE HER, and hopefully kirsten

good luck to my vball gurls- megan, kellye, heather......
they're goin to state for the 4th year in a row. thats tight. and if they win, it will be the 3rd year as state champs. that is dominant!

so, i havent watched finding nemo since the last time i watched it with you. is that ironic? maybe the next i watch it will be with you. we watched that all the time.......it would be just like old times.....how you use to crack my fingers and my toes.........

so, when we use to go on road trips, i would count like everything- birds in the sky, cars on the road, cars in a train, lines on the road....etc.....i was weird

as we drove through big cities like....tampa, chicago, atlanta......i wanna live in a big city, in an awesome apartment, and be a doctor or resident. it would be awesome.

so, back tracking about 2 weeks.......i was fortunate enough to go to the wi/purdue game at purdue. it was AMAZING. wow. i had so much fun. it possibly put thoughts of going to purdue in my head. that would be awesome!

ya know how sometimes, you loose a really good friend due to certain circumstances that you have no part in. so, you may not completely lose them, and they dont think you've lost them, but you really have. and you wish you could just say something to them, and make everything better, and change it to how you want it to be? i just wish.......

some people come into our lives and walk out, while others come into our lives and leave footprints on our hearts.....

jordan- i HATE avacados. i hate them. and now, i hate you. you are gay. and i hope you see another whale sometime soon.

so i really miss cancun rachel. i really really miss it. :( :(

this year is gay. it seems like no one is ever happy. and like everyone is always crabby. we hardly have any fun anymore. people tend to exclude themselves, so we're not really a group anymore. just some random friends kinda. we never hang out- ever. we never have parties. its gay. i hate it so much. school isnt even fun anymore. we have only like 2 years left of hs. and this year is the worst by far. what a way to end the last half.

and theres a part of me that doesnt even wanna play soccer this year, cuz it seems like practically the whole team doesnt like playing with me. they talk about me behind my back and say that i'm a bitch and all this stuff. if people dont like playing with me....why should i play?

this is one long blog. but i was bored.

It's okay to be angry and never let goIt only gets harder the more that you knowWhen you get lonely if no one's around You know that I'll catch you when you're falling downWe came together but you left alone And I know how it feels to walk out on your ownMaybe someday I will see you again And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend
~lyrics from one of my favorite yellow card songs

Everybody here is living life in fear of falling out of lineTearing lives apart and breaking lots of hearts just to pass the timeAnd the eyes get red in the back of your head, this place will make you blindPut it all behind me and I'll be just fine
~more from yellowcard

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly. I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky. Make a wish, take a chance, Make a change, and break away. Out of the darkness and into the sun. But I won't forget all the ones that I love. I'll take a risk, take a chance, Make a change, and break away
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jetplane
Far away And break away
~Kelly Clarkson

well i gotta go get ready for soccer practice. and i prolly wont be able to play well because i have no toenail. and it hurts like a bleech. lol. french. but ANYWHO. have a great night. email me, call me, hug me. miss you and love you all.
emmer-nemmers........(only my parents call me that).............